By Isabel Jones
Updated: Nov 07, 2018 @ 4:01 pm

Though resident cool girl Zoe Kravitz seems to be aglow with confidence and BDE these days, she’ll be the first to admit that wasn’t always the case.

The 29-year-old recently told Elle that she “felt like a freak” at the (mostly white) private school she attended in Miami. “I felt like a freak because my hair was different, and little kids would come up and say, ‘Can I feel your hair?'” she said. “The things that made me different were the things I didn’t like about myself; I wanted to straighten my hair, remind people that I was half white.”

Being the daughter of a rock star (who happened to be one of the world’s most eligible bachelors, with girlfriends including Nicole Kidman) didn’t help matters, either.

“I went through a really awkward phase. I was short and brown, surrounded by tall girls with boobs and blonde hair,” she explained. “And my dad was dating supermodels, so I was waking up to Adriana Lima. I didn’t have beauty as a crutch, and I’m thankful for that because I had to develop my personality.”

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On the eve of her 30th birthday, the Big Little Lies star appears to be feeling more secure. In a recent Rolling Stone interview (which she posed fully nude for), the actress revealed that she and boyfriend Karl Glusman have been engaged since February.

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“He nailed it,” Zoe said of Glusman’s low-key proposal.“I love that it wasn’t this elaborate plan in Paris. It was at home, in sweatpants.”